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So wow I seriously havent updated in awhile but I've been super busy with the end of school, graduations and such and work. We only have like four full school days left which is pretty kickass. I am so pumped about this summer. I can tell that its gonna be one to remember. Hmm maybe I'll meet a really cool guy I fall head over heels for. Dont know but hey it could happen. So anyways to update lately I've been going to graduations and graduation parties a lot which is always fun. My uncle Richard from Sacramento, California is visiting for two weeks which is pretty cool because whenever we have company I feel like I can get away with more stuff. I havent hung out with Allison or Lindsay that much recently but I have missed them dearly. Hopefully this weekend we will though. Trina and I havent really went out anywhere lately but we've been hanging out at home. Its still a lot of fun though, no matter what when we're together we always find something to laugh at or talk about. Its cool. We're planning to do something fun this weekend though so that should be exciting. Well I've been working like crazy, seriously they hardly give me off those stupid assholes. Just Kidding. But I honestly dont mind working that much, its fun talking to and meeting new people and laughing with friends from work. I met a lot of people at my work who are all so nice to me, I'm the youngest girl there and a lot of the girls there are older but they treat me like I'm a best friend or something. Its nice. Also I work with my best friend Trina it cant get that much better so we laugh a lot and talk even though sometimes we're not next to each other. If not we scream across the store. Hehe. The guys that work there are all super nice too, some are a little perverted but theyre able to be tolerated. Haha. All of my bosses are super nice too which is good because asshole bosses suck but luckily mine are nice. I think my manager Phil is a little creepy but hes nice. This one guy who works in the back is so hot, he looks like Abram from the Road Rules and hes so nice. Dont know his name but I'll find out from Corey. I just feel weird asking him. He distracts me while I'm working sometimes though which isnt too good. Haha. Coreys really cool too, he works in the back also. We like to do stock together and ride the carts and act stupid but its fun. It sounds like I dont do any work but I do work a lot promise. I only goof off when I'm finished and through with my work. Besides work I've been hanging out with Kim a lot lately because shes out of college and back home which is nice because throughout the year I miss her. My mom also got her surgery for her breast cancer which is really good because now hopefully the worst is over. My mom and I fight constantly and can hardly stand each other but shes still my mom and I dont know its hard to explain I still love her and want the best for her even if sometimes I feel like she doesnt want the best for me . I know we dont live together and she didnt raise me but shes still my mother who gave birth to me and all but anyways. We only have a little while until schools out which I seriously cant wait for. This summer is going to be awesome. I am so excited. My aunt and uncle are leaving my cousin Mea the huge house for a month by herself so they can go on vacation. Its gonna be cool because we're definitely gonna have huge parties there. Its like almost a mansion and super nice so that should be tons of fun in the summer. Oh yeah another update is that my friend Amy met this really super nice guy whos really cute. So I'm really happy for her. She tells me really romantic stories all the time which is so sweet. They really are cute together. The way she tells them seems like its almost from a movie, he sounds almost too good to be true but he honestly is nice. I totally can tell the way people are by meeting them and I can tell that hes genuinely a great guy. But she definitely deserves it, its her first boyfriend and shes one of the nicest people so she should have a great guy. Also my grandmother and I have been getting a long pretty well which is nice. I hate fighting with people and shes one of the people I fight the most with. Oh yeah and Chris got a new girlfriend Carrie whos really nice. Shes funny and I'm really happy for him because hes been wanting to go out with her for a while. Wow everyone is getting new boyfriends and girlfriends which is good. I wannt one now. And Oh yeah Lindsay goes out with Joe now which is cool. Theyre cute together. Summers almost here and life is good and well hope it only gets better. Hopefully I get a digital camera so I can update with tons of pictures but I'm not sure if thats gonna happen this weekend. I have a bunch already that I wanna scan on here from recent weekends and stuff but who knows when I'll get around to it.
Until Later Loves <333
PS. I just went outside and played in the rain with Mike and Chris. It was so much fun. Hot, humid thunderstorms and rainfalls are the best and that means its official summers practically here. Oh yeah I took pictures too which are pretty funny of us jumping in puddles and stuff so hopefully I'll get them on here soon.
Xox0 Ash
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[25 May 2005|11:00pm] |
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So I know I've been updating like crazy but the end of school means no homework and at night the internet is my main source of fun. This journal entry is mostly about happiness and such or lack thereof. Two of my best friends are having some not so good times in their lives and I honestly love them to death and care about them a lot so things have got me thinking lately. My one friend who I will not name is so unhappy because her boyfriend treats her like crap and no matter how hard she tries she cant seem to get over him or get rid of him. It makes me sad to see her unhappy but in reality its kind of her fault but I guess I honestly cant relate because she says she loves him. I'm sure there would be exceptions when love comes in so I try my best but its hard to relate to her. I dont understand why she stays with him. Why stay with someone who makes you cry constantly and makes you feel bad about yourself ? Your boyfriend or girlfriend is supposed to make you feel like the greatest thing in the world and support you one hundred percent in anything you do so I dont understand her reasoning or thinking but shes a good friend that I miss dearly and I hope that she does realize it because she could do a thousand times better.One of my other best friends who will also remain nameless made me think about other things because shes unhappy with herself and the fact that she doesnt have a boyfriend which is probably what a million other teenage girls think too. Shes a wonderful person and a great friend and I think that if she doesnt rush it and get too discouraged that she'll find someone who makes her happy and likes her for her no matter what. She deserves the best and shouldnt feel like she couldnt and wouldnt get that. I guess I'm different than most teenage girls because I never go out of my way to make a boy like me or whatever. I think it would be awesome to have one of those romances like in the movies or whatever but at the same time its scary. I never felt like I had to have a boyfriend or else I couldnt live like some people do. I think that loves a scary thing because it can make you do some crazy things and the fact that one person can affect you soo much is kind of surreal. Two of my best friends want the one thing that I dont want. I think that my friends sometimes think that boyfriends will make their lives perfect but sometimes it makes them worse. You should be happy before you meet the boyfriend or girlfriend and then the boyfriend or girlfriend comes along and makes your life a million times sweeter. Wait for that person that you gives you butterflies, makes you smile constantly and you cant help but think about them all the time. I guess my point is that dont rush into something unless its real and always listen to your gut feeling. To my two friends you know who you are dont ever underestimate yourself. Theres that one person out there for everyonee. <3 It might take some time to find them but theyre out there. I'm a strong believer in fait and if its meant to be then its meant to be and things will most likely get betterr.
Pinky Swear Promisee.
Always
<3333 ASH
PS. Sorry about it being boring and long but I had to say it and sorry about sounding like Doctor Phil. It just came out sounding that way, I honestly didnt mean to.
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